22nd June 2012

It's another year, eventually it's her birthday again. 17th this year already, one year older than previous year. Should be more mature on thinking . Lol. I'm glad that you liked the cupcakes.

On your birthday 2012, June 22nd. I've complicated feelings due to the happenings. Firstly, my IELTS result is releasing after 13 days. Thanks God I have a not-very-bad grade. But slightly lower than what I've imagine, still I dd my best. Secondly, our, the 1995's babies last sports day in high school. Everyone of us put the last effort for marching team and the sports game. What we're hoping for is to have a great memories keep in our mind forever and ever, till the day we leave the world. Red house doesn't disappointed me as we're the 3rd for overall, 2nd for mascot and 3rd for marching, all top 3 !! On the same day, my younger brother left for Aussie. Not knowing that I would shed tears looking him leaving us towards the immigration and walked forward till we couldn't see. My tears are out of control.

I'm now alone in the palace. Noone to talk to, no one to play to, no one to argue to.

Emotional won't help

This was a month ago.

May oh May, your ends make me more happy than ever. I'm being a super good student everyday in May as for studying after school and tuition classes. I survived at last. I wasn't drown in the ocean, struggled so hard to live....

Couldn't really believe myself for doing notes this time. I hate notes to the max before this, it eats up a lot of time for doing it. But then I like to draw simple little things with different colour this time. It looks nicer and more attracting, don't you think so ? Another thing was colouring what you've drawn ! Taking up colour pencils after yearss.

Lacteal.

And then, I started to fall in love with fruit juices once again ! Sounds healthier ? They taste really good with the presence of banana. Really really delicious, love them superb much. Have you ever tried this combination ? Simply pick some fruits from the fridge.

Kiwi, couples of strawberries, bananas and some natural flavoured yogurt.

This is the outcome of the combination. Colour wasn't nice ? But it really taste good. :)

The week before the mid-term test start, there was the sukantara for every house. Yivian's mom delivery Kenny Rogers as her lunch as well as their muffins for us. Yivian treat me hers muffin as the reward for getting 2 marks for the high jump session. Hehehheheh. I contributed to my house for sports day. LOL. I always convince myself that the little marks do help for the overall. 

I heard a bad news when school dismiss on Friday, my mother's side grandpa passed away. He's been weak for some time already since he got cancer. These bad bad cancer cells were damaging his immune system and made him suffer. Seeing him looks thinner and thinner every time I went back with mom. Mom was worrying about him and she visited him at least once a week lately. When he couldn't even drink, mom insist to send him to ward since he wasn't took in anything in 3 days !

I have to admit that I'm selfish as I'm not willing to stay there for the funeral by giving reason I've to do revision and ballet lessons couldn't I miss since next week is the exam. Grandpa should be disappointed on me. I felt sorry for that but I doesn't mean it. :( Really felt sorry and guilty.

I slept for few hours only during the first night of funeral as there isn't enough space for us to sleep. Waking up early at 7 that day, with this wonderful yummey chao fun by my aunt. Eat this while doing revision for physics !

I didn't sleep for the following day as there was no place, chit chatting with my cousins all night long. And this was my very first time staying up till morning and went to Mcdonald's at 4 in the morning ! Lollll. Went there for some breakfast and coffee to waken up yourself...

Sadness. I saw mom's tears keep falling down from the corners of her eyes, she went several times to see the last face of grandpa. I saw her cried made me burst into tears, I can feel how mom cares and love grandpa much. I'm sad to see mom cried, I couldn't do anything...the flashback of my healthy grandpa, welcoming his grandchildren everytime we visit with his broad smile on the face, asking me question. The healthy him...

Surprise from Carmen !

I need to blog this first. INDEED.

A big surprise from Carmen, she did mention that it will be a surprise on June earlier in May and I wonder what is that. Not realise that even she tagged us in the video on facebook as she always tagged us. How she did she reveal this surprise to me ?

We had a baking session in my house yesterday, we tried to bake macaroons and it failed of cause.

The failed macaroons !

 While waiting the to-be-failed-macaroons baking in the oven...

It went scorched. WHYYYYYY.

I don't care. I must have the second attempt with YeYi next weeeeek, until I bake it successfully.
Then, we were chilling in my room. She's complaining about the streamyx in my house because it's superb slow, couldn't load the video she wanted to show us, not exactly couldn't load but take times. The video was Jun Sung Ahn's latest violin cover. She was still waiting for the video to load and she showed me on her iPod.

DANG. DANG. DANG. DANG !! It's our photo in the video, Jun Sung Ahn's video ! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT ?

Spot us at the right bottom. 'Rock on Senior Year' !

Polaroid of the day.

Look at them. I can only get this face, =.=

It doesn't matter who you are a decade ago, a year ago,or even yesterday. What matters is who you are today and will be tomorrow.