Emotional won't help

This was a month ago.

May oh May, your ends make me more happy than ever. I'm being a super good student everyday in May as for studying after school and tuition classes. I survived at last. I wasn't drown in the ocean, struggled so hard to live....

Couldn't really believe myself for doing notes this time. I hate notes to the max before this, it eats up a lot of time for doing it. But then I like to draw simple little things with different colour this time. It looks nicer and more attracting, don't you think so ? Another thing was colouring what you've drawn ! Taking up colour pencils after yearss.

Lacteal.

And then, I started to fall in love with fruit juices once again ! Sounds healthier ? They taste really good with the presence of banana. Really really delicious, love them superb much. Have you ever tried this combination ? Simply pick some fruits from the fridge.

Kiwi, couples of strawberries, bananas and some natural flavoured yogurt.

This is the outcome of the combination. Colour wasn't nice ? But it really taste good. :)

The week before the mid-term test start, there was the sukantara for every house. Yivian's mom delivery Kenny Rogers as her lunch as well as their muffins for us. Yivian treat me hers muffin as the reward for getting 2 marks for the high jump session. Hehehheheh. I contributed to my house for sports day. LOL. I always convince myself that the little marks do help for the overall. 

I heard a bad news when school dismiss on Friday, my mother's side grandpa passed away. He's been weak for some time already since he got cancer. These bad bad cancer cells were damaging his immune system and made him suffer. Seeing him looks thinner and thinner every time I went back with mom. Mom was worrying about him and she visited him at least once a week lately. When he couldn't even drink, mom insist to send him to ward since he wasn't took in anything in 3 days !

I have to admit that I'm selfish as I'm not willing to stay there for the funeral by giving reason I've to do revision and ballet lessons couldn't I miss since next week is the exam. Grandpa should be disappointed on me. I felt sorry for that but I doesn't mean it. :( Really felt sorry and guilty.

I slept for few hours only during the first night of funeral as there isn't enough space for us to sleep. Waking up early at 7 that day, with this wonderful yummey chao fun by my aunt. Eat this while doing revision for physics !

I didn't sleep for the following day as there was no place, chit chatting with my cousins all night long. And this was my very first time staying up till morning and went to Mcdonald's at 4 in the morning ! Lollll. Went there for some breakfast and coffee to waken up yourself...

Sadness. I saw mom's tears keep falling down from the corners of her eyes, she went several times to see the last face of grandpa. I saw her cried made me burst into tears, I can feel how mom cares and love grandpa much. I'm sad to see mom cried, I couldn't do anything...the flashback of my healthy grandpa, welcoming his grandchildren everytime we visit with his broad smile on the face, asking me question. The healthy him...